Weighing my unworthiness

I want to try to enunciate the Reason for my ever-growing, overflowing Faith in Christ.


I am bathed in sin. I am constantly awash in it. Compared to the perfection of Jesus Christ, I am utterly deplorable. I'm lazy. I think ill of others. I cuss those who slight me (real and perceived alike). I judge those who I view to be more wrong than I am. I am prideful. I harbor animosities, grievances, and grudges too numerous to account for. In these regards, I am like every other man (save One) who has ever walked on this planet.

By some accountings, there are many worse than I in their sins, but I no longer look at it this way. The distance in sin between me and every other human, from the most pious to the most deplorable, is nothing when compared with the distance from any of us to God. That is a seemingly impassable chasm. How can anybody have even the vaguest comprehension of God, given the vastness of the spiritual distance that separates us?

Since we are utterly incapable of bridging that chasm by ourselves, the Lord has provided for us. We are, at least in my mind, completely unworthy of His love, yet he provided it anyways. He sent his Son to be our sacrifice. In strictly human terms, the crucifixion of Christ was the greatest atrocity in history, without anything remotely comparable. One perfect, blameless being died, that all of humanity may be saved. To paraphrase Alistair Begg, it was as if a good lawyer (oxymoron, I know) came to represent a defendant at trial, and once the defendant was found guilty of his crime, the lawyer was put to death. Only instead of one defendant, it is every human who has ever lived.

I don't think it can truly be stated how tremendous, how overwhelming, or how incomprehensible that sacrifice truly is. Once I came to realize the Truth of his sacrifice, I've really began to look at my life more critically, and every day I see more that is false or sinful in my life. For Jesus to take only my own sin is astounding to me, but to view the sin of all of human history? I can't begin to wrap my mind around that.

Who are we to benefit from such profound love? I won't speak for the rest of the world, but in my view, I'm completely unworthy of such a monumental act. But it has been granted to me regardless of my self views. And that being said, I'll gladly accept. I have no doubt in my mind that this is the greatest gife that humanity could ever receive. I would that more people truly knew and recognized it as such.

My recognition has caused a profound shift in my outlook on life. If Jesus has taken the whole of my sin burden on Himself, then who am I to continue to haphazardly pile it on without regard for that sacrifice? I seek fervently for God's help in living a purer, more pious life, so as to lessen my constant addition to that already immeasurable burden, and hopefully to bring others to that same understanding.


I ask the Lord to give me the strength and wisdom to face and recognize the sin in my life, and to give me guidance in cleansing it, so as to show even a little of my gratitude for your Son's sacrifice in my name.